Two Lives

Living two lives is hard,stressful and no fun at all. Yes of course there is some excitment around not being the same person everywhere you go but when you are living two lives for a long time it can cause unnecessary stress and heart ache. Not only for you but for those around you as well.

After a long weekend of serious talks and discussions... I am left to ponder some of my current,as well as, past situations. I sit here reflecting upon times of the past. I remember a time of living two lives and what a stressful situation that became to be. When I say two lives, I mean not being the same self everywhere you go for example in your workplace or in your home. This is stressful when your one person in your personal life and another totally different person in your professional life. It usually ends up in huge amounts of stress and heartbreaks that in the end are not necessary. What is even harder is when you are becoming two different people in your personal life. Is it really worth it? Wouldn't it just be better to be able to have freedom to be yourself no matter what friends you are with or what relationship you are in?

I don't know something to think about,.. so going back to the couch to do just that. I want to make sure for myself that I am not creating a double life scenario in my life once again...For that amount of stress and heartbreak I dont wish upon anyone ever.

In gratitude of the learning this past weekend.... it was really intense.

Asha