Letting Go...

I have been doing alot of traveling lately and have been bombarded with all sorts of impressions, people and ideas. Finally today I have had a moment to relax and just really sit with my thoughts and feelings. A good time to reflect on all that is occuring...

An overwhelming sadness filled my heart today as I realized that I am being forced to let go of something that I love so deeply. Why is it always the hardest to let go of the people and things that you love with all your heart but the things we don't care for so much can come and go as they please?? I think it is normal for us to take things and people for granted in our lives over time. We all have experienced this on some level naturally. And I, just as so many others, have had multiple opportunities to learn how to let go whether we choose it or not.

With my current situation, it is being chosen for me. And for someone who likes to be in total control of her life.... well that is not always so easy to deal with. Let me just say it is heavy on my heart and I am not sure what to do with it. My past experience has taught me that time does heal things and that it gets easier with time... well that is not exactly true. What really happens is that over time your life moves on at a turtles pace and you are forced to make other choices whether you are over your loss or not. To lose someone that you hold close to your heart...is only a physical experience. Because no matter where that person goes or is they are always with you in your heart and you can carry them with you all the time.

I am not so happy with the situation at hand, but will learn to accept it as it needs to be at this time. I patiently hope that the sadness fades away into a far distance sooner than later.

In gratitude for all that I have been given to learn and grow from,

Asha