Acceptance

Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope all of you are having a wonderful and joyous day filled with love, light and peace in your hearts.

I have been having a great morning here with my family and been able to spend some introspective time as well. I could not sleep very well last night, it is a combination of jet lag, time difference, too busy in my mind, and just seeking out some answers for myself.

At 5am this morning I sat in the living room with my cup of hot chocolate. This is where I remember opening up my first Christmas gifts years ago with the family surrounding the tree and all the laughter, joy and life that once was there. Today life is a bit different for everyone and the experience has just changed. As we grow up we start to see things from a different prespective and our desires and wishes become much more simpler and meaningful. I started thinking about all that has occurred over the last several decades and found joy and pain in the reminiscing of times. I think the holidays can bring that out in each of us, for me it is because I have allowed myself to really slow down and think about all that I have experienced and continue to experience. I am grateful for all that my life is and has become. Of course I still long for something that I have yet to find in this lifetime. What that is.. I really don't know how to put it into words as of yet. However I do know that in me realizing this longing or desire... there has grown a level of acceptance in my very core. I accept things as they are and as they are meant to be. That can sometimes be very hard, hurtful and downright cruel. Or at least the perception can seem that way. For me it has been a mixture of feelings and emotions all roled up in one.

As I reflect in these last days of 2008, I know that the answers I seek will come in the right timing. I accept my responsibility here on earth to be a decent human being and helping those that are less fortunate than I . I look forward to meeting old and new friends along the way and sharing this great gift we have to be grateful for.... that is Life.

Happy holidays once again!
Till next time,

In gratitude and love

Asha