Choices..

I spoke to a college friend a few weeks ago and we had the best time 'catching up' on life. She and I discussed the many twists and turns that our life have taken and laughed about the choices we have made and what has resulted in our lives due to those choices.. So here I go again with subject of choices. Since that conversation I have had a few more conversations about 'choices'. I have made a lot of different choices in the last few years, some of them good and some of them not so good. But that does not matter in the end at all. What matters the most is that you make a choice and see how far it takes you.

I made a huge choice to move to Europe, followed through and here I am. It was one of the best choices I had made in a really long time. What I did not expect is All of the consequences that would follow this type of choice. I have never had a problem being put into a situation that was unfamiliar to me, in fact that is the story of my life from the beginning; from where I grew up, friends, dating, college, family, places that I lived over the years, etc... I have never been afraid of being 'different' so to speak and it has made me move through life in a very bold way I have to say.

However now I sit here in Europe having the time of my life traveling and seeing so many beautiful places, meeting interesting people, speaking entirely new languages, etc. And I realize that my choice has had some personal consequences which I did not foresee. Ones that I had no idea my heart would feel so deeply. It is as if something in my soul has just cracked open to feel the 'rawness' of life. I realize that it takes some extra guts to do something like this, I realize that and I am grateful to have that. But now it is time to make another choice... something personal. Because you can make choices sometimes that lead to you a destination, when really life is about the journey moreso. I feel like the choice of "Destination Europe" is complete and I can just check that off my list now :)

Now it is time to get more personal and begin choosing for the more personal areas of my life. Even if that choice doesn't seem possible at the moment or I don't know what to choose... which is more of the case now. It seems that life chooses situations for you, sometimes things that you never saw coming your way. That is what life is about, the surprises that make us laugh, cry, feel happy or sad. I feel like I have been having a big 'mix' of those since I moved here: Disappointments, heartbreaks, joy, laughter, excitement.... this list can go on and on. Of course I know this is the experience of life and I would rather be really feeling, growing, transforming in my life than feeling numb. Tried that for a while, it doesn't work for long.It has been tougher on some days more than others. I guess the fact that I am staring at myself again in the mirror is making for some tough days lately, hence this blog entry...

In the big picture, I have everything to be grateful for in my life. I am happy about the outcome with the US election, grateful for the true people in my life, my family, my friends and my ability to pick myself back up again from whatever seems to get me down. I appreciate the kind words I have been receiving lately. Some many 'earth angels' have surrounded me in this time and have brought a smile to my heart and a shine in my eyes. Thank you for everything. It is late here, gotta go.

In love and gratitude,

Asha