Keeping the Connections

I have been traveling yet again in between some grueling days of working here. It has been busy, face paced, challenging and totally a new experience for sure. I can't complain, this is a fun ride in my life and there probably won't be another time like this for a while. So just enjoying it!

In the midst of all of this, I have been experiencing some frustration with friendships lately. Mainly to do with others not keeping their word or saying one thing and doing something else, or better yet, saying nothing at all. As I experience this frustration it is causing me to do a life review yet again. I feel like this is the tenth time I have done this in the last year or so. You know reviewing all relationships and making sure that all of them are in check so to speak. I am experiencing some frustration, disappointment and some fast realizations about our relationships. Some of our connections with people are just a phase we go through and we need to be willing to share the time and then just let go and see where life takes us. There are some connections that are just too painful and hard to keep up with. They suck the energy from you. These need to be let go of in order for us to grow and free up that drained feeling. Then there are others that are just mysterious. You are left feeling unsure or always guessing about your interactions or communications. These can really cause alot of frustration. And then lastly there are others that stop communication with you because you have not done what they wanted you to do!

I have come to a new conclusion and committment to myself after reviewing all of this frustration. And really there is no need to be frustrated with the behavior. It takes two people to connect, communicate, and build a relationship of any type. If someone is not pulling their weight or responding there is a reason. You may not know the reason but sometimes people don't know how to clearly communicate and can't just tell you that they need time to deal with their own lives or they have too much going on right now to continue a regular friendship. Some people get very busy and self consumed, I totally understand that too. I do feel that a little communication is not that difficult in this day and age.

So my conclusion is that for the next month I intend to communicate with those old friends and acquaintances that put forth an effort with me as well. I am ready for some two sided connections rather than one sided. I just want to try this out for the month of May and see what happens. It should be interesting to say the least. And I might feel better putting more energy into those connections and relationships where what I have to offer is valued more.

I do wish everyone a great month and I will be off line for the next week or so traveling. I will try to at least post pictures while on the road. It is gorgeous weather here and I hope to take some nice pictures of the flowers in the Keukenhof this weekend.

In love and gratitude

Asha