Just Say What You Have to Say

So much has been going on over the last month, that I am not sure where to begin. I have been learning so much about people and life over the last few weeks the more I get to interact with a variety of people. I know it seems like every since I stepped foot onto European soil that is all I have been doing. Well there is a tremendous amount of transformation occurring for myself. For the most part I am embracing it all.. and then there are parts that I am not so keen on changing willingly. But I kind of don't have a choice :)

One thing that has occurred to me is to just say what you want to at the time that you feel like saying it. There is really no reason to fret being rejected or thought of as "stupid" for feeling or thinking something. I am not talking about blantantly being rude or disrespectful to someone else. I am talking about truely sharing yourself with others. I have spent the last couple of decades of my life holding back in the fear of being rejected, turned down, thought of as immature or inferior in some way. But I had a huge realization with a recent interaction I had with someone. I realized, who cares how the other person responds or doesn't. The fact is if you are not upfront and honest about how you feel, then what is the point of living. In my opinion, you are not truly living the more you hold back. And you notice how much more energy it takes to keep your mouth shut? I have spent so much energy trying to do and say what I thought others thought I should say or do that it makes me sick to think about missed opportunities to tell someone exactly how I felt about them and what a difference they have made in my life. That is no longer the case for me.

This entire month I have been sharing myself with people I feel close to in my life and sharing things that I normally would not. Some people have responded positively, some have not responded and some have just gone into hiding. Whatever the reaction has been, it is ok by me. Because of the fact that I know as long as I say what I have to say, I have no regrets. You never know what may happen and occur in the future. Sometimes our words impact people in an overwhelming fashion and they later reflect upon our words and other times they are well received on the spot. Despite what the other person does or doesn't do, just be true to yourself.

I feel like not only am I learning a new language in my life now, but I am learning a totally new way to communicate with others. I feel like it is about time actually. As I feel a little more grown up now in my life than I have in the past, I feel like it is important that we know how to communicate with ourselves openly as well as others.

I hope everyone is doing well and I appreciate your thoughts and emails during this time. Things have been tough but I am doing well and "keepin' on keepin' on" thanks to all the support I recieve.

Till next time

Even More In love and With Gratitude,

Asha