I had a very long conversation last night with an old friend of mine that was so needed. He and I have known each other for about 16 years now and we have been in and out of each others lives consistently over the last several years. He is one of the most caring people I have ever met. He has a sense of humor that is like none other. You know the kind you need on those days you find it hard to laugh at yourself in what you think is the end of the world! Over the years our lives went through several changes and we drifted back and forth into one another's lives. It seemed that every time we would drift back into each other's lives it was perfect timing.
Just before I moved to Europe he and I reconnected again and have been talking ever since.( I have to say thanks to pingo.com, they have great overseas rates) It is great to reconnect with someone that truly knows you. You don't have to have your guard up or guess what the other is thinking. It just doesn't matter, you can be yourself. Years can go by and yes things change but I think that the essence of who someone is really doesn't change too much. I've been feeling really out of sorts lately and especially this last week. I have drifted away from what I think I deserve,what I am capable and worthy of in certain areas of life. Last nights conversation with my dear friend reminded me of my lighter side, my playful side,the side that doesn't take life too seriously. He listened to me go on and on about an issue in my life that has really thrown me off track lately and he listened with no judgment, no telling me what to do, and no "shoulds". All he kept saying to me is "Just be yourself Asha, you are really good at that! And there is to be no apology about being yourself ever." In this conversation,I was reminded of what I am capable of and what I deserve in this life. He also reminded me to have patience with myself that I have just changed EVERYTHING in my life and that takes time. He reminded me to be caring with myself and to really only concentrate on that right now.To surround myself with those and communicate with those that can have the patience with me as well. And that might mean there may be some people that I just might need to drift away from for now. In talking with him I realized that I tend to have more compassion towards others pain or changes in their lives than I do with my own. Although over the years I have gotten better, I am still very much a work in progress :)
I have a deep sense of gratitude for friends, family and acquaintances that can remind you of the important things in life and where you stand in the midst of it all. I think we all need reminders along the way. I was very fortunate to have the time to talk to my friend across the miles last night. I thank him dearly for the great reminder that I really needed.
In love and gratitude,
Asha
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