Life's Frustrations

This new year of 2009 has come with its share of frustrations indeed, and I am still trying to learn how to deal with them. Sometimes so many good things can occur in ones life that you are spilling over with joy and in a state of utter bliss and in the next moment your entire world feels like it is falling apart. There is only so much that we have true control over that is true. I feel like this is a recurrent theme of lessons that present themselves to me over and over. I wonder if I am ever going to get it!

There is no doubt that I have alot to be grateful for and am continuously being shown by more random acts of kindness and compassion in my life. Lately I have been a little more quiet than normal because there have been so many new changes occuring in the undercurrent in my life. Some of the waves have toppled over my head leaving me feel like a drenched cat and other waves have come through and allowed me to freely float along and enjoy the scenery. The biggest surprise to me is the people or as I like to call them my guardian angels that have stood by my side through all of it. I feel so much love, appreciation and peace when I think of those that are standing by me in some of my most painful times currently. It is truly a gift to have people around who truly care and are not just in your life for what they can get from you. But moreso of what they give to me and share with me. Lately I have been feeling very vulnerable and am learning a new side of myself that maybe this new year will show even more in my writing, I hope. For it is a tender side that has not yet been revealed until lately.

Ah just another day in the life of an expat trying to find her way not only in the outer world but very much in the inner world of her heart. This exploration is one that takes time and gentleness.

Till next time

Definitely in love and gratitude

Asha